DARDAR'S Blogg

2011-12-18T14:34:00.002+08:00

Blog is rotting ):

i'm tired, working now and my eyes are shutting down like 1 fuck ):

it's been so long that my boyf suddenly treats me so 'sweet'?

well, not kinda him, sigh,

i felt so lonely and i really just need someones to really cares for me, siting besides me and hug me.

but to him? i don't think so bahs?

1st month, 3rd to 4th weeks, he's not even sweet like last time, i've 1st met him.

thought he was the only guy i'll have, but nahs, i'm just naive.

i just need a boyf who can, accompanys me, and not texting on others girls or talking to them,

i just need a boyf who really will go out with me, even he's tired.

i need a boyf when ever i've knock off from work, he'll fetch me to home.

i need a boyf who will holds me tight and never let me go.

these all things, he's not even there for me. i felt so heart break.

well, it's okays bahs, i'm use to it.

Maybe i'll have my single life soon (':

2011-12-07T22:18:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, Jealousy really kills me.

after work, went to school for lessons, and teacher is nagging me and my buddy x.x

saying, singaporeans kids are all so L A Z Y! ):

Omg, cannot believe it that teacher say us till like that! grr..

and she din even say her own daughter or son x.x! O M G -'-

after school, went to Boyf's house.

Siting at his elder's brother room alone, and he went to his parents room and talk on phone with other's girls? or i don't know, but i know it's a girl.

come on DARDAR! why you're so soft hearted? why why why? x.x

prepaid phone card he use finish he have no money to buy, is i always help him out, i can't believe it that he use it to call girls and sms them.

since he doesn't wanna even treasure me anymore, and just forget it, i don't wanna be the stupid 1 who is holding on like 1 idiot )':

sometimes i feel like just walk off without anything or just silent break.

i've nothing to say anymore, blame on myself who is so naive to have a relationship so fast.

it's H U R T F U L ):

2011-11-27T10:17:00.005+08:00

1st Bite from Renjie ): ^

2nd Bite from Renjie ): ^

3rd Bite from Renjie ): ^

4th Bite from Renjie ): ^

5th Bite from Renjie ): ^

Renjie bite me at powerhouse because he say i cannot cry out )':

But, that day already cry already ): he still wants me cry again x.x

i don't wanna be C R Y B A B Y ):

there BITES makes my both hands very pain lurhhs ):

Somebody save me pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee T.T

2011-11-25T13:39:00.004+08:00

That day ~

i can't really smile that day, cause my eyes is swollen .

Yes i've cried that day. Cause of some reasons?

He texted others girls, facebook adding girls.

i don't know m i still his Girlf or?

well, i'm just posting that day matters, and yesterdays things (:

but, yesterday the day before something strange happen, he drank and he drunk when i reach his house, he hugged me tight, and say sorry to me, and he say he never did those things behind me, but i really can't control and my tears really roll down, and i feel myself i'm a useless girl?

i've pull him to his bed, and take care him and watch him to sleep.

He's mumbling and saying don't snatch my girlf, and he hug me tight, but i've lost abit trust cause i've caught him text others girls before. haiya! i don't know bahs! ):

okays drop this topic if not my tears coming me .______. )':

i've tell others don't hurt yourself, but i've lost my control and cut myself.

yesterday went to SmellyKelKel brother's house with DAWN < his babygirl (:

everytime i thinking, why my boyf not as sweet as others?

Drop this topic? (': i don't feel like saying, once if i said, my tears will be a water tap like saturday when i'm at club, thanks RENJIE brother, Leen sister (:

i promise you both i won't do silly things already alright? (:

Saturday i'll club again uhhs! (: catch me there alright? (:

16 more days to me and you 2nd months.

2011-11-23T12:44:00.002+08:00

Scroll down 3OO plus blogskins, nothing suit my blog ):

Having emotionals once again, everyones leaving me like free flow.

Like my sis, X.hei, he went suicide, My ahgong, X.Fire, he went to surrender himself from awol and other things, and next i don't know will be in jail or suicide?

Yes, i miss club. i've regret not going ph these few weeks.

i feel like going under rain ):

ONE&ONLY

2011-11-22T13:22:00.001+08:00

Hello Twineh ! Now Its my turn to hack in your blogger since you hacked mine

but with the same intention I gonna write a short post but with full of photos :D

Our 5 years friendship started through volleyball, a place where we go mad and play

wild, sweat and run like a mad kid ! In the court, we are super united. when we

train, we laugh at each other daily with the whole team. Eventually we 2 became twin because

we are the roundest fishball in the team, bong bong bong ~ ><" In this 5 years many things

happens, being single and attached, quarrels, friends who comes and goes, attending all kind of event together, bickering and watching movie together, beautiful memories :D

Sometimes we care for one and other without each other knowing, we have our own method of caring, which we disagree with, You scream, nag and scold at me to show that you care, I cry with you, whine and advise you as a way to care for you, being totally different, we still became twinneh for years ! Some people used to ask why are you so noisy and hyper while I am so shy and quiet, sometimes I also ask that too, we might have different character but in some things we are just alike, don't you think so? You always think that you are a bad friend ,which I never want to let go because you are someone who taught me lots of stuff, be there for me at a different way, bring me out to see the what happening, and give me surprises which I never will expect. You are full with nonsense and crap, you moron, me moron ! :D

We never fail to make ugly faces when we take photo together,

to laugh at each other yet want to do it again and again and again.

Never bored of making a fool out of ourselves yet feel

so paiseh for each other, that really makes me feel like laughing out loud !

However both of us were never as strong as how we look on the outside, we were just like any normal girls who are weak and fragile, we pretend to he strong to prevent others to see how weak we actually are. We emo and cry together so many time, be it with you, for you or because of you, all this memories can't be forgotten that easily. We are always paranoid, and we think alot, but we always tell each other not to think so much. I always tell you : Don't be sad la, but the next min when I am sad, you return the sentence to me and ask me not to be sad ! Muahahaha we are so silly ! We do things and regret together but that happens in every teenager's life, to make mistake and regret about it. If we don't make mistake in our teenage life, how will we learn what's right and what's wrong, how do we spot our mistake and prevent it next time :)? we cannot afford to make the same mistake, again & again..

Like any other girls, we love big plushie ! :D

We love to camwhore on bus and blast our ear piece with clubbing song

or emo song, on our way home, then ear piece in ......all the way till we reach home.

You love to treat me lollypop ! ALWAYS ! like seriously ! -.-

Not forgetting that you always treat me to lunch or dinner when I am died broke, tit for tat,

when you are broke, I will treat you movie or cab you home. You are a 24/7

cabber, yes cabber, always taking cab ! learn how to take bus la girl !

Save the money ! but going out with you, you will seldom make me

travel because we will cab here and there and you will send me home safety :)

& if I cry on cab, you will send me a silly text and cheer me up !

You have a million and one friends, but you never mind introducing them to me,

letting me make more friends. Chilling out at late night, spamming photos

or drinking till wee hours or let me stay your house till the very next day ~

friend comes and goes, parts and parcels of life, we can never force anyone

to stay by our side. If people feel happy with us, they will stay, if not by all means

let them leave, move on. Don't cry over those who don't worth your tears alright ?

Just make sure you did your part as a friend, fear not, let them leave , good ones

have yet to come. No one is perfect, we all have flaws, only true friends will tell

you what they dislike about you, only true friend will tell you how they feel about you

because they want to see the change in you, they want to let you know that they will not

let go of you :) so don't be mad when someone tells you something that you don't like,

those people make you better and stronger, we will never get to see who we really are,

only true friends will tell you honestly. Remember, those who accept you might not be

your true friend, they might just want something from you, as you bring advantage to them,

some are doubled mask who will act differently in front and behind of you, you know the world,

you know people more than I do, I also don't need to say much, yea?

I still remember your promise - to buy me helium balloons and filled the room

& I promised that on your 21st I will buy you a 3D 2 tier cake for your

birthday present, always remember my promise de hor ! Mai siao siao ! :D

I might not be rich to treat you all the time, I might have not the money to bring

you oversea, I might have the time to be there all the time, I might not be popular

or pretty looking, all I have is a true heart, to be friend with you forever,

we might quarrel but we give in to one another, I might do something which

makes you dislike, just tell me straight for as you know I hate it when you hide

anything from me. I always trust you to tell you to tell you secrets, don't break

that trust :D! there's a long way to go for this friendship !

Lastly, there's some things that I cannot afford to provide or give, I cannot give you the kind of love which you are searching for. But I will always lend you my shoulder to let you cry on, lend you my ear for you to rant or nag to, I will always give you best wishing for you and your bf, be it who he is, you have to be strong for as you are the one who made the choice yourself , no one will teach you or tell you who to choose, no one will tell you what changes there will be, don't be afraid you are not alone, mark that words ! All the best to you and your bf, don't let small quarrel affect you :) Follow your heart ok, don't cry anymore, don't cut, don't drink over such small problems because you still have a LOOOOONG way to go, start to think for your bright future, I still need my future children to go your hair salon to cut hair de hor ! hohoho ! Don't always tell me you want to suicide, suicide will not solve anything it only make your love ones heartbroken ! you still have a brother to look after, he needs you , we all want you be happy and fine daily ! (Y)
I might not be the best sister, i might make you anger or sad at times but I am happy that I will always be your sister and cheer you up when you need me :) I will always remember the 2 sentence that you tell me, always, it means so much to me :D !

Hope you like this post ! & always visit my blog!

www.where-is-sunshine.blogspot.com ! :D

Update your blog often, like me :x

I hope there's no typo !

XOXO,

DAWNIE ! ;D

2011-11-21T14:56:00.002+08:00

i'm tired, really tired of everything already.

i feel like giving up this relationship, but something in my brain have stop me for not giving up.

i'm trying myself not to cold towards you, but i still can't. You have lie to me once, twice.

i'm scare to be the thrice again. Sometimes, i just feel like crying till i fall asleep.

my heart have a scar now? maybe?,

now this relationship, is i step into it. Blame myself for listening to sweet talks.

you said, you wanna tell me things, all in fb, but i totally seems to not interested anymore.

i feel that i really can't be your wonderful and perfect girlf.

lastly, i feel myself useless.

)':

对不起我不能做你要的完美女朋友

iLoveyou.

2011-11-21T00:49:00.002+08:00

1 cut on wrist, leaves a scars, just to remind myself, not to me too soft hearted.

i feel useless, to really give in to you.

i've cried for like 2 hours, cause of a short quarrel.

i've made myself so useless. you texted girls,

i din even text any guys. Ofcause i'll angry you, don't wanna bother you.

what you did to me behind the back text girls, telling me you already have their number before knowing me. come on, i'm not 3 years old kiddo to let you fool around.

i trust you, i don't wanna think so much also, but she come and tell me, about this and ss-ed down. now what ? my fault?

okays bahs, i don't wanna talk much thanks Dawn, SmellyKelkel, Kang & Yingying for treating me dinner (: thanks for making me smile (:

loves (:

2011-11-20T10:45:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to watch movie with Twintwin and SmellyKelkel Brother and my little brother,

i've been chasing happy feet from start to part 2 (:

awww! little eric is like cute only las (:

Twintwin was complaining my blog rot already, it's time to clear my spiders web.

Let's start on Day 8, My favourite Internet friend.

i've alot uhhs, so who to start? cut short <:

internet friends can't be trust too much, they'll backstab you (':

okays, shall not post this :x

And twintwin gonna kill me ~~~~~~

Now she got her babyboy also don't want me already,

even if i got a boyf, he don't seems to care me like how i care him.

i feel that everything haave change. nobody know how i feel.

And i want my family back )':

i hope there's still together we are one alright (':

God bless my mum, mum, iLoveyou!

2011-10-28T20:44:00.002+08:00

RIP sis ♥

Thanks for being there for me when i needed listening ears,

i won't forget, how you makes me smile, your flying kick, and everything (':

Visit me all you want in my dream okays? (':

i'll wait for you to come visit me and share things with me (':!

♥

2011-10-23T17:26:00.002+08:00

Issit hard to maintain a relationship?

sighness, well, me and my boyfriend dint meet for like 1 week?

gonna 2weeks, i understands he got no money, but why can't he just accompany me just awhile?

he always think that i don't think about him, but what can i do?

he's in camp, and i'm outside.

can't he just meet me like few hours? like what DeWei brother says, why can't he just meet me for lunch or dinner or anything? meet for few hours i'm happy already.

but why can't he just understands me more?

i've never have this type relationship before. it's hard for me sigh.

he knows how to sleep, know how to play his basket ball,

did he really care me?

if he really cares for me so much, when i'm sick he won't be staying at home, he would come down to my work place and find me.

but.. i bet he won't bahs.

i just wanna vent my anger and my sadness out. thanks god they make this blog, if not i won't be able to vent my sadness and anger.

2011-10-20T23:07:00.002+08:00

11th's ♥

Finally, 雨过天晴,

Baby iLoveyou las (: ♥

2011-10-19T02:26:00.002+08:00

You've accuse me, you make me cry.

yes i don't know why i'll drop a tears cause your accusing.

thanks for peoples who know i'm sad.

Thanks Sister leen, thanks Ahjie, Thanks Lala, Thanks Felicia.

Thanks for being my listening ear (:

thanks for lending a shoulder to lie on when i'm crying.

Sorry to my boyf for being paranoid, cause i'm really scare of you leaving me.

you're the 1st ever guy i'm really paranoid of, seriously,

you've melted my heart.

Lastly,

iLoveyou DearestBoyfriend (':

2011-10-18T00:22:00.002+08:00

11th's

Baby bring me and my little brother go watch movie,

And dearestboy don't wanna pay ):

And i insist, but he gives me BirdFace!

Sorry for attitude you boy just now, i seriously dam piss off already.

i don't understand why they take phone without listening my phone calls ):

sorry for ignoring you for 1Omins ): and i don't know you will really count the timing,

and i love camwore with you dearest (:

Thanks for today.

i promise you i won't leave you alright?

Love you many many (:!

2011-10-14T11:13:00.002+08:00

Boyfriend accompany me alot days (:

thanks BabyBoyfriend (:

Loves you many many (:

Thanks for the sakae, movies, cab home, and accompanying me!

I LOVE YOU (:

2011-10-11T18:17:00.001+08:00

I ♥ My Boyfriend

11th's ♥

2011-10-09T15:03:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps, i'm fine aye (:

yesterday club like a fun LOL!,

sees alot fights aye! :x LOL (Y) i like (:!

and thanks Kai Brother, yesterday got ppl push me you nearly wack that moron LOL

you sieh F I E R C E ! (: (Y) less fight uhhs next time? (:!

2011-10-07T09:51:00.002+08:00

Everyday when i see you lying on bed and you're not eating makes me feel dam uncomfortable,

Mum, Everytime we do wrong things you will gives us a chance to say sorry.

Thanks mum you always have the most good impression to my friend (:

Everyday went in to hospital, i still don't know your therapy will pain anot?

are you strong enough to take it the therapy?

Everytime, when i club, i just scare you'll just leave to heaven without saying.

i just doon't want anything to happen to you. it's just heart pain when you are weak on bed.

Mum, i'm sorry for making you angry these years.

Lastly, I loves you mum, you're the greatest mum i've.

Thanks god for giving me such a fierce and good mum.

♥

2011-10-06T22:46:00.003+08:00

Day 7 - My ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush.

let's talk about my ex boyfriend (:

He's good to me, but i din treasure it.

well, maybe it's fate? after breaking with him and i might me alittle bit regret?

he's good to me, but he's too sticky till i'm really scare of it.

well, it's too late to say i wants him back cause he already have his 'good girlfriend' (:

thanks for him there when i'm down, or in need of money. thanks alot.

now, you've walk into the relationship do last long alright? (:

i bet you still got stalk my blog uhhs! HAHA (:!

2011-10-04T19:15:00.002+08:00

Day 6 - A stranger

This brother i know him at Powerhouse. laughs, is that call stranger? :x

i knew him when i'm in the CLUB (:

He's fierce uhhs! nobody dares to talk to him unless his friend :x LOL (Y)

whatever, i've nothing to say :x byes :x

2011-09-30T11:18:00.002+08:00

Day 5 - My dreams..

Last time my dream is to be a singer, a famous hair dresser, a wonderwoman same as my mum.

Mum did everything because she's independent, and she won't be letting us worry about her.

but.. now her illness become worst, my turn to be independent.

i don't wanna let her worry anymore and no more.

i've not been eatting well, sleeping well, because i don't want her to leave me.

everyones have their own mum.

all with bondings. i really don't want her to just leave us like that.

mum, you can fight for your illness.

Jiayous (:! with loves, Your daughter.

Lastly, i hate older then me have a childish mind fk (: please be mature you D O G ! (:

2011-09-29T19:17:00.002+08:00

Day 4 - My siblings

He's James, he's my only little brother (:

even we've fight or anything we still be the same. he's the one for me when i've no money or what,

he will fork out his abit money to borrow me or anything.

We always joke around and everything,

if mum cane or scold us, we will protect each other.

Thanks god, for giving me this brother (:

2011-09-29T12:22:00.002+08:00

Day 3 - My parents

My parents? hmms, okays, mum always scold me cause i've always go out late, but i really need treasure her,

she left few months with me, i don't wanna waste these times (:.

Mum, when you're not with me, i feel left out, nobody talks, nobody hug, and all.

i've try 1 week when you're not with me ):

it's hurtful, see-ing you at hospital with all pipes poke-ing through your body,

and i just feel like slapping the doctors face!

mum having rest now, and i'm preparing to go school. okays, i need post another day later (: i've mmiss out 1 day (:!

2011-09-27T23:42:00.002+08:00

Day 2 - My Crush

My crush?

hmms, it's starts from when i'm primary school, there's a childcare center i'm having, LSC

This guy when i'm primary 6 this guy i'm really into him like idiots, laughs!

and everytime we will eat together, dance together, sing together and play together.

he's birthday i brought my little brother go up to his house and celebrates his birthday.

Like a shy, and funny when i think back? laughs!

okays, i've nothing to say le nahs (: this is dam pathetic alright? (:

2011-09-26T23:14:00.003+08:00

Day 1 - My BestFriend.♥

He's my buddy, KailShen (:!

he's always there for me when i'm down, he will try to make me smile and do those things that nobody can do (:

When i'm in Powerhouse, i'm down, he will sing loud loud at the smoking area, and his friend Anthony will run and get tissues for me with alot alot powerhouse tissue :x heehees! thanks for being there for me even though i just know you like not even 3 months (: thanks buddy, hope you Get Well Soon from your food poisoning (:

Wednesday and Saturday then Rock the House okays? (:!

Day 1 - My BestFriend.

She's Eileen Ong Hui Ling.

i met her since i'm sec 1 (: know her for like 5 years (:

We know through each other in maples (:!

and meet up at PCBunk. Now we've grow up, we clubs whole night, and she's like my tummy worm, and i'm like her tummy worm, laughs.

when i got no money to go home, she's the one who will say, i PAY la!,

when i'm hungry i saving for cab fares, she will say i PAY la!

when she wanna eat her 小笼包 i got not much money, she will say i PAY la!

when i cry over my mum's illness, she cry with me, and hug me and gives me a warm shoulder (:

even though our age is 1 year diff, and 2 diff names, we're like real sisters,

She's EILEEN ONG HUI LING! , i EILEEN FOO YU LING!.

well, sometimes, we really can't maintain ourselves,

We will on music loud or put in earpiece we will sing out dam loud! laughs! and shake shake shake in public :P

Hope we can really last this friendship alright? no! is FOREVER geehees!

Thanks sis, i loves you much much (: muacks muacks!♥

2011-09-26T14:01:00.004+08:00

I'm gonna start this as From day 1st till the 3Oth (:

Day 1 - your best friend.
Day 2 - your crush.
Day 3 - your parents.
Day 4 - your sibling.
Day 5 - your dreams.
Day 6 - a stranger.
Day 7 - your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush.
Day 8 - your favorite internet friend.
Day 9 - someone you wish you could meet.
Day 10 - someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to.
Day 11 - a deceased person you wish you could talk to.
Day 12 - the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain.
Day 13 - someone you wish could forgive you.
Day 14 - someone you’ve drifted away from.
Day 15 - the person you miss the most.
Day 16 - someone that’s not in your state/country.
Day 17 - someone from your childhood.
Day 18 - the person that you wish you could be.
Day 19 - someone that pesters your mind—good or bad.
Day 20 - the one that broke your heart the hardest.
Day 21 - someone you judged by their first impression.
Day 22 - someone you want to give a second chance to.
Day 23 - the last person you kissed.
Day 24 - the person that gave you your favorite memory.
Day 25 - the person you know that is going through the worst of times.
Day 26 - the last person you made a pinky promise to.
Day 27 - the friendliest person you knew for only one day.
Day 28 - someone that changed your life.
Day 29 - the person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to.
Day 30 - your reflection in the mirror.

2011-09-19T12:59:00.002+08:00

i bet my this sister is better then you! (:

To me you're just HUMJI kias (:

no money? LOL! ask me pay ASAP? LOL!

you're one kind, it's alright (:

my BUDDY and my KORKOR already said,

you touch me, you're not gonna be fine (:

so now you're telling me you've help me alot like 1 IDIOT?!

i bet i think i'm more like a IDIOT to help you more!

lending money it's only 5O bucks, and you say i BARGAIN with you?! please!, Leen sis was right, meet up and throw money on their face! freaking laughs die me yeas (:

you wanna cheat my Fking money just do say (:

yea, BUDDY was fking right, pay them and everythings will be fine (:

thanks BUDDY (: thanks for being there for me when i needa you? (:

sorry, i've no THIS 'SISTERSHIP' in my mind anymore (:

you this type of 心胸狭窄 ppl, i won't be contacting you! and my mother is right (:

leave you far far away, if not you will fking snatch my FUTURE away (:!

ppl's HUSBAND you also snatch le, LOL! i bet you're one kind alright (:

and i don't care you know what gangster-ism or what! wanna step on my fking tail? i've bet you've step the wrong fking tail (:! you this type of YP kias! fk far far away bahs (:

i don't need you in my life also (:! Thanks for hurting my FKING heart alright (:!

i won't believe a LIAR as a 'SISTER', a BACKSTABBER as 'SISTER', a 2HEADED as 'SISTER', POH PPL'S LAMPA as 'SISTER'

and thanks for asking your 'AUNTY' to scold me (: i'm like a HAPPY cause it's been so long nobody scolded me (:! you not happy? go jump building lurhhs (:! that's all (:!

i'm drawing a LINE to you yeas (:! MORON! LOOK HERE, this is for you! -'- :D

2011-09-18T20:34:00.001+08:00

She's there for me (:

LASTLY, I HATE DOGS! (:

2011-09-14T10:19:00.002+08:00

Should i work or don't work?

well, i'm kinda bet that i might not not working bahs? ):

There's lots of backstabbers in this world,

i just fking feel like crying you know? )':

And Happy advance birthday to Jestor (:

我依然让我自己为了她们儿奔亏了自己的心，心里不知道想些什么

我宁愿哭着回家都不想哭着去找你们！

2011-09-13T19:29:00.002+08:00

HEYHEY! (:

working and so boring ):!

and i'm trying to keep my blog alive!

2011-09-08T22:51:00.003+08:00

Kinda have the feeling that i'm the dramas of 新还珠格格 the 小燕子!

this dramas 小燕子 always get protected by all the brothers and sisters,

and thanks my brothers and sisters uhhs! (:

i'm really really very touch (':

my character like always same as 小燕子 -shy-!

well, i'm quite moving on with this 29th's already, no more these bitches (:

no more 小人! no more 心胸狭窄's ppl already (:!

Good byes 29th's, and good bye bitches! (:!

i've always my Dajie besides me talking with me (:!

thanks my Jasmine dajie (:! 爱死你了,

thought we both keep on think of 29th's,

but we know, it's over, this is what they wants.

so, we can't really think of that anymore alright? (:!

We both working at same place can meet everyday talk for 1 hour heart to heart talk (:

i'll be there for you, and you'll be there for me , thanks Dajie always be there for me when i'm down.

爱死你了 (:

2011-09-06T20:31:00.002+08:00

i bet he's cute (:?

i'm just wanna let my blog to alive (:!

seriously, i reallyy can't get a good boyf? ):

all guys in this world are just jerks ):!

okays, drop this topic (:!

i've been clubbing ):

i'm really stress, and i really wanna drink, drank and drunk ):

wednesday, club, saturday club?

i'm like an idiot club club club and drunk drunk drunk ):

我的心已经没有什么东西叫做姐妹情和爱情，

我现在在一个黑暗的房间里躲起来，

我好累，真的好累

很想出去被车撞死，被人打死，被人砍死.

i really don't know what i'm really thinking? x.x

i really just wanna let go of my fking life,

it's not precious anymore.

Friends besides me are all one by one gone,

29th's? GONE,

四姐妹变成了两姐妹, this is what you all wants?

i've been holding this sisters-ship for like 1O months,

you all take it for granted?!

And to you this bloody bitch! i really feel like slapping you!

i really feel like shouting and wack you! you make me tired of these sisters-ship!

you bloody mother fucker!

blogging, makes me say everything out. i just wanna have a listening ear,

a shouder and a huggable things.

i'm really sick of this now ):!

my tears suddenly roll down from cheeks, and i've nothing to do but blogging and crying.

everytime, i've drunk myself and force myself not to cry, but it end up dropping tears!

i'm like a fool, i'm like an idiot, like a dumb! ):

其实呢，我有很多心理话想说出来，我很想去海边喊.

2011-09-04T15:12:00.002+08:00

i bet he's (my nephew) cute (:

my nephew same as me cute cute (:

eyes small small :p

yesterday went to club! i've already gives warning!

don't step on my tail, but this fker insist to step on it yeas (:

so good luck (:! laughs!

2011-09-02T23:57:00.002+08:00

recently chionging clubs with sister X.Leen (:

kinda don't have the fking mood to club also.

i feel that, it's not point to cry and no point to cry over 29th's, this is what you both wants right?

quarrel and separate? i hope so. and i'm tired of holding on on the 29th's our sisters ship.

it's hurt to let go, once we already like that, now? not year 1 year, and everything's gone like 1 shot. it's really hurt and peoples around me asking me what happen?

and i've told them till they ask me to really give ups on these shit!

what's comes around goes around, yeashh, it's hurts on 29th's and i'm really letting go of this fking shit, DARDAR jiayous on giving up! jiayous! these few days, i've been dropping tears cause these shit.

cause of 1 mooncake job and it really become like this? what's wrong? ah! 我再也不会为了你和你而哭我真的很想平静的走过只记得路. it's alright, cheer up DARDAR (:!

2011-08-30T12:10:00.001+08:00

Clubs all day (:!

2011-08-23T18:06:00.002+08:00

hi! i'm at work (:

work place is dam bored cans? ):

how i wish, there are people know i'm working here and tabao for me to eat or what,

well, i bet it's not bahs ):!

nobody know where m i, my gastric is dam pain x.x

these whole day, i've been not eating from morning till now? ):

because! nobody eat with me or what la ):!

i've been revising my BTT and i'm really really scare of the test cans? ):

i've fail for like 1 time, i don't wanna fail for another time.

sigh, hopefully i will pass my BTT.

Oh ya! Mooncake festival coming (:!

i'll be working at compasspoint for 2 weeks uhhs! do visit me there :D!

geehees <: okays shall stop posting here (:!

I am only one; but still I am one. I cannot do everything, but still I can do something; I will not refuse to do the something I can do. Life is either a daring adventure or nothing. Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature

2011-08-22T15:18:00.002+08:00

Update everyday? (:

hmms, wake up early in the morning, prepare to mum's shop.

and after that, cab down to serangoon garden for my work again x.x

i'm like superwoman! work work work, 1 week have pass, and i'm like a good girl,

din't go clubs, drink?

oh well, i'm just kinda bored cans? ):

i work 2 jobs because i need find times and kill it! ):

i don't wanna stay at home take parents money and out i go ):

these few days, my mood really really dam down.

i've been hiding ):

okays, shall stop here for a moment (:

I've been weak and I've been strong. I've been thru the fire and I've been thru the storm. Try to do right and I know I do wrong. Just be happy for me when my life is gone. Cause with no more hurt and no more tears, there will be no more pain and no more fears. No more people in my face that are not sincere. So smile for me when I'm no longer here.

2011-08-17T10:54:00.002+08:00

i'm like a hardworking?
Morning need help mum open her shop, afternoon go for hair dressing school,
evening, working at serangoon garden .
it's tiring, but no choice ):
i need money, really need money. ):
so chiong for work yeas )':
Glad to see OKM's tummy, her tummy getting bigger and bigger (:
and sis Joanne sis (:!
everyone's i know and they're married or with babies!
ever since i've been single for like 6months plus?
And yea! i should quit club, quit drinking.
my body have been weak, due to asthma, but no choice, i don't wanna stay at home
quarreling with parents.
okays bahs, i not going to blog le (:! cyas!

2011-08-14T23:34:00.003+08:00

Things happen dam fast alright?

guys lies? yes they lie (:, They having more and more excuse.

Ahjie is right! guys just want two time girl (:

having more and more disappointed in guys too.

all your sweet talk are lies.

ytd went ph, and i fking drunk myself like 1 idiot!

what's the problem with me?

2011-08-07T15:11:00.002+08:00

Once again, i've cried in Power to the House again ):!

i don't even know why m i fking crying D:

thanks for my sisters accompany me aright (:!

thanks alot, appreciate it!

2011-08-05T12:36:00.003+08:00

Putting everythings down i bet it's hard (:

oh well, i'm not gonna find a boyf already (:!

ahjie says, 'you're 18th and find a boyf and stable down, not people don't want you is you don't want people'.

i was like, i'm 18th already ahjie (: i still can play, you have your JinHui, i've nobody.

Cherie have his FatRyan and OKM have her soon Boyf.

but, sometimes i really very impress those couples. Really, i swear.

because they're sweet? maybe??

i've give up on every guys (:!

so i would say no to guys (:!

sorry if i'm being evil or heartless. Because it's all hurting me and i don't wanna hurt you guys too.

To Zhong!;

sorry i've been rejecting you because you already have a girlf,

i don't wanna you cause of me you break up with girlf too alright? (:

thought she's the 3rd party, but you both already together uhhs!

thought she's immature and paranoid, go know her well and treat her good lurhhs (:

i can't go out with you and i also don't wanna your girlf to be paranoid.

Your birthday is my 1st and last day to go out with you (:! hope you will like the Wallet uhhs (:!

and thanks for the cigg toos (:! thanks for everything (:!

Smile with her and my bless to you and your immature and paranoid girlf (:!

Best wishes! :D

And last, i've to say this, i won't patch with you (:!

Sorry for those hurts words (:!

2011-07-29T00:28:00.002+08:00

29th's

Hey happy 9th's monthsary (:!

misses you all uhhs (:!

when you all really wanna take your off days and really have a good outing?

i realise that we don't even have our 4 peoples picture together ):

i'm abit dissapointed cause these few months we din't get to

go out together ):!

well, it's been 9th's months..

we have already quarrel enough le uhhs? (:

no more quarreling le okays? our bonding is still not enough babes!

when we going CLUB together?! as what we already said we wanna go together! ):

and when you all wanna go overseas?

i hope next next months 29th's we can really get out together and bonding together ):!

We always thought we'd look back on our tears and laugh, but we never thought we'd look back on our laughter and cry

2011-07-25T00:53:00.002+08:00

yeashh! i loves babies (Y)

Yesterday went to Powerhouse, and i knew it manszxc!

my 6 sense is correct okays! ):

in my life time, nobody scratch and slap me ):!

tmd xiaogou! sluts! you won't be alright if i see you at PH (:! trust me!

my chin scratch and a slap from you! this time is you both drunk, if not i confirm pull you both go geylang and be a chicken!

your karma will come real fking soon! -'-

so what you've been in ph for 3 years! yeashh! i love what patrick says!

' i don't care you come here for how many years! i'm the manager here, you both are ban! LOL!

i like okays! :p!

but yesterday is fking entertaining day for me! (:!

those guys entertaining me cause of this girl we say POKE! :x heehees ^@^

okays, shall not post so much uhhs! :p

i shall head to beddy nights!

2011-07-14T17:51:00.001+08:00

cheers for me, smile for me (:

well, these days, i've been so tiring, due to hungry ghost festival coming.

it's really tiring when helping at mum's shop, and going school till late.

i miss you, you know?

2011-07-11T19:31:00.002+08:00

felt tired holding anymore,

maybe shall club whole day and whole night )':!

sometimes, i felt my life is abit meaningless.

我不懂什么是爱情，什么是感情，什么是失恋，什么是无限的

爱，我真的不懂.

i'm tired, i need a breaak. ):

2011-07-06T19:10:00.002+08:00

Fishing this whole week, with Kelvin, Kang, Colin and my didi (:!

amazing uhhs (: hmms, was very tired aso ): get not enough sleep )':!

these few days, bonding was fun (:!

never phail to send me home safely toos (:

Friday fishing and toning again till sat morning! <: then sat afternoon waiting for that ass to come fetch me to lynn's chalet (:!

2011-06-24T11:47:00.002+08:00

Blog rotting! LOL

okays, it's busy these few days, studying for my BTT ):

i'm tired >: get not enough sleep T.T sigh, tonight club <:!

okays shall stop here awhile, i gonna busy already <:

2011-06-18T14:15:00.002+08:00

Goshh! this picture looks like i'm sleepehh ._.

well well well, it's been so long and i now i'm blogging (:

you know what? i've already give up on everything, it's been so long and yet yesterday you just texted me awhile and well, i'm like a alright (:!

i don't know what's love, it's been so numb and it's hurts.

i'm hiding in a dark room, keep on go clubbing clubbing clubbing.

my life is like a club mode. it can't turn off.

it's been 18years she wack me again,

smoking and get caught by her cane,

protecting my little brother, cane!

i really don't need a mother like now. i really don't want a family anymore.

everyday i feel like crying, but i don't even have a shoulder, listening ears.

what's else? what's more?

i really can't stand this house anymore. really, sigh.

just let me sleep till can't wake up it will be better.

i just wants a simple love, and things

with a simple care a simple love a simple warm place to stay that's all.

2011-06-13T00:25:00.002+08:00

i've told you

well, i think i shall migrate myself is the best? i don't wanna get hurt anymore.

you know i like you, but you change alot (:

sorry for saying this to you.

i've love you once, but you din treasure it that's your problem (:

i'm sorry, i don't think i will meet you or what alright?

i won't think much, i want to migrate le (:!

support me alright? (:!

2011-06-08T11:10:00.002+08:00

A new day start! :D

Yesterday night went to LAGOON with ahjie and meet OKM (:

and eat alot alot alot <: eat till full full lurhhs :D

hmms, was playing and eating with ahjie, long time never like that le ohs!

hmms, then there's a guy keep on look at me .__. it's OKM's friend.

and yesterday we ate alot free food till we really stomach really BLOATED

there's, 4 peper crab, 2 fried eggs, kangkong, stingray and fried lemon chicken :D!

wow wow wow right? :P!

best part ar! went off and OKM texted me and tell me her friend wants my number -.-!

sieh best -.-!

i don't even know him or what, makes friend? .__.

like a LOL?

hmms, okays las, don't even wanna talk much (:

ciaos!

Another day have gone, and fate bring us apart.

2011-06-06T12:51:00.004+08:00

It's a tiring day for me ):

chalet is over, and clubs makes me more and more boring.

and the days you texted me is gone, It's alright that i've already use to it.

i hope that next time we meet, i will go home myself alone, drink liquor myself too.

i felt a knife stab into my heart and it's painful.

My sis was right, thanks them for being my side when i need them (:

how i wish my birthday is like go fun like dawn's chalet.

i'm very happy that she's already 18th. Hope she will be everyday so cheerful like the chalet times. I'm at amk mum's shop again, like tiring only.

Yesterday night went to underage club, thanks to that NELSON EMONEMO pull me go 'UNDERAGE' party and i'm like a overage! .______.

and he PANGSEH me! you suck! :x LOL!

i don't even know tonight what m i suppose to do and where to go?

always bored and yea, i just feel like going to the beach and cry and shout! ):

oh well, i shall go watch my dramas, don't wanna think too much.

2011-06-04T15:13:00.002+08:00

wake up, faceboook, etc..

Morning wake up, yesterday went to rebel for some fun and was like fking piss off day? My heels broke down and i kena people step! .__. my toes are hurt ): sigh!

if you were there maybe you will protects me like last time, but you're not there already, i should say, it's just a crush.

halehhluyah manszxc, i shall drunk tonight! yea babehh! (Y)

TONIGHT POWERHOUSE bahs! (:

True love is when you shed a tear
and you still want him.
It's when he ignores you
and you still love him.
It's when he loves another
but you still say "i'm happy for you."
It's when he holds her near him
that you feel him closer to you.
True love is when you smile at the thought of him.
It's when you know
you can't live without him.
it's when you always see him
when you close your eyes.
It's when you wish he was always there.
True love is when you smile
and say you are alright
even though all you do is cry and cry.

2011-06-03T12:43:00.002+08:00

Missing? misses? miss?

it's starting or? you gave me secure, you protects me and all.

i've a sudden feeling like, it's just a crush. (that's my thinking)

Yesterday night went to 42O AMK find AHJIE and all (: tell them everything when i'm sad or feeling confuse, chatted till 1 plus am and head down to my house downstair for a drink.

chatted alot with AHJIE and ERJIE, wondering what am i suppose to do?

they gave me advice, but well, times and fate will come together.

it's times, that pull us together. but it's fate tears us apart.

okays, i shall go school 1st (: blog it tonight alright? <:

2011-06-02T11:03:00.003+08:00

Today is chinese chu yi,

everyones sating vegetarian ):!

i hate it alright! ): just now thought of ordering mac and all aunties come towards me and say, ahgirl! today chu yi must eat vegetarian x.x then i was like okays, i've made a promise to mum.

every chu yi and 15th will eat vegetarian & now now now, i don't know what to eat cans? x.x

my vegetariaan come le x.x thanks to the hair dressing shuaii ge buy for me (:!

i blurr till i threw the plastic cup on the big rubbishbin outside my mum's shop,

and while waiting for mum i nearly fall asleep on her shop ):!

when i goiong school i took bus 132 to school, then i fall asleep,

the bus stop at my house.

and i just wake up, i've 5 miss called from my korkor AHKANG,

telling me that Wolverine is at bedok HQ, i ji tao WTF?!

arghhs! .__. i should send him go home 1st! i should not let him send me home ):

sighh, and Jessica say we both like a weird.

hmms, thinking through! it's really weird! .__. LOL! okays

waiting for his text and see he will be safe anot.

7.38pm

called him and ask him what happen, and he tell me.

why you're so silly to do things without thinking? why? hopefully the party of the other side won't charge you uhhs? Don't forget on cab what you told me, you will move on and it's a pinky promises. you already told me it's your ex, why you still bother? well, not that everything fight can slove.

'Sometimes when you innovate, you make mistakes. It is best to admit them quickly, and get on with improving your other innovation'

2011-06-01T11:29:00.005+08:00

1stly! i've called heliums balloons company and asked about the balloons for my bestBUDDY DAWN for her chalet (:!

well well well, a big headache for me ):

she said she wants 5O enough for her, but i don't think so? 1OO will be enough for her uhhs!

i've ask lynn, michele, sharon and longhao to kup with me, it's her birthday we don't wanna go without presents right? so yea! HELIUM BALLOONS is better for her to make her happy (:!

CHALET from this coming friday till sunday! :D WEEEE!

hope we have lots of pictures and to post in blog and FACEBOOK :D!

2ndly! i'm deadly rot in mum's shop at AMK! )':

after mum come, i need go school ):! arghhs!

i wanna go out, but i don't know wanna go where ):!

i'm bored here, nobody come find me ):!

okays, shall not post much going watch my dramas! :D CIAOS!

2011-05-30T14:27:00.002+08:00

Look like little girl is not a good thing ):

can't buy cigg, can't go in club, can't buy liquor.

well, days have past, i've been human for like 18 years le uhhs &

thanks mum and dad for feed me till so big.

oh yeas, don't even know wanna go for tonights club anot ): like a sianszxc!

hmms, know something?

i just recall every past ):

feel like crying but..

haiya, idk what to say ._____.

okays, shall not do anything i go stake a nap (:

byes!

2011-05-29T15:28:00.003+08:00

Michele! heehees :p

i miss you all las! ):

usual, wake up, brush teeth, bathe and etc..

hmms, i've a sudden, i miss some people but i still don't know who isit?

what's wrong with me these few days ):

yesterday went to Powerhouse, i don't even have the mood to dance and all.

every saturday always get AEROPLANE by my own sister!

i'm not a HOTEL!

you want come then come, want go then go?

you got boyf you leave me alone,

when you got no boyf or quarrel with boyf you come find me.

forget about it okays?

and to my parents!

i really don't know what's is FAMILY love?

they always says, 'F'ather 'M'other 'I' 'L'ove 'Y'ou,

well, i don't even have a FAMILY 'LOVE'

sometimes, i want to get a boyf but i still don't even have a trust of guys?

A guy will cliques with my friends, A guy will dote on me, A guy would worry for me and all?

i think this is diffcult?

guys are all the same, they do without thinking.

hmms, don't talk about it, i loves my lifestyle now (:

i always Club Club Club (:

okays, shall not post anymore alright (:

2011-05-27T10:13:00.002+08:00

early morning mum wake me up for school and kpkb,

then she keep on ask me what time go school!

after that nbcb things happen,

i wanna RUN AWAY FROM HOME!

arghhs! nobody knows how i feel.

SHE only know how to threathen, play her computer games all night long,

don't even wanna tc my little brother, and yet he's SICK now!

FK THOSE SHIT FOR HER OKAYS!

now i've just reach home (: i'm going rebel le uhhs! (:

meeting WenZi brother and all :D

shall go prepare and go out le cyas (:!

2011-05-26T21:06:00.002+08:00

HAPPY early 16th BIRTHDAY didi (:!

wish you have a nice day later at 532 (:!

faster find prettehh girlf let me see uhhs! :D

2011-05-26T01:07:00.002+08:00

okays! as usual,

school days, and yea half way run to find my buddy DAWNDAWN (:

then slack at her house till like nights? (:

AND SOME PEOPLE so fierce towards me las ):!

sorry gangster AHWEE boss! (Y)

he still OWE me $1.5O cause he scold VUGAL :P

okays whatever it is :X i going sleep le night! :x

Happy belated birthday to XinYu,

2011-05-23T22:10:00.002+08:00

Happy belated birthday to XinYu (:!

Just wake up not long ago :D!

yesterday night work midnight shift for the packer,

9pm to 7am ): jitaos is SHAG de lurhhs!

but, fun okays! there's Dawn, Me, LongHao and Cherie with me!

we where playing and taking stocks, and there is so stuffy las!

hot like a suana, me and LongHao like a smoke machine.

SMOKE SMOKE SMOKE. LOL!

and today they called us and tell us not to go work! and we earn $165 ^.^

WOOOHOOOO! money money come le lurhhs :D!

oh well, i'm like gonna blog everyday :D!

only for WEDNESDAY and SATURDAY can't blog uhhs :P

will be CLUBBING these both nights! :D

okays i going out le :D!

byes!

2010-12-16T00:46:00.002+08:00

hi everybodehh! like my new hairstyle? :D!

geehee! cut my hair to short :D!

and i've got to go ciaos!

just wanna post up my new hair style :D! (Y)

2010-12-08T13:42:00.002+08:00

these few days was like a busy toning, working, drinking.

oh well, like a boring uhhs ):

misses thosssssssssssse time, we were enjoying.

say serious de! this guy making me just darm irritated x.x!

piss off manszxc! like a boring alright!

okays i shall stop here. cyas

2010-11-27T12:04:00.003+08:00

morning everyones! :D

yesterday was like a late reachh home ):

2am plus, because mummy and ahlong quarrel x.x

when they can stop this things? when when when?

me ahjie and OKM already so stress up liaos, now we helping them hold on their burden.

oh yas! yesterday go meet my GOLDEN didi! :D

was like a happy cans! (Y) very long never see him since he went for some courts and

boys town. and for the real sake! he's changing for a better GOLDEN ~

last time i see him he was like chao ahbeng chao ahbeng,

then angkong here and there, like a fierce. LMAOS

now! he's becoming like a little boy! and feel happy for him, he got his family already (:

okays whatever! i'm fking now at mum's shop doing nothing!

finding things to entertain me lurhhs!

watch movie! ahhh! okays i go watch liaos ciaos (Y)

see yas next update! :D

2010-11-26T12:31:00.003+08:00

MORNINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG ALL (:

these few days, i chionging for my maths! D:!

and at mum's shop shop doing nothing,

well well well, like a boring cans? ):

somebody come AMK find me lurhhs!

these few days, eat eat eat, fat die me le las! laughs! i'm already fat. :x

my daily life is,

go out with twinnehh, go out with my god family :D!

and eat play and everything ^.~

wondering, when is my turn to have a very very good boyf.

laughs! i don't need bastard or whatever alright :D!

bastard totally sucks, and sweet talkers you're nothing better toos :x

drink too much sweet talk? or eat too much pearl?

laughs :x oh oh oh ~ clubbing timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i love clubbing omggg ~

okays, i go watch my video le ciaos (Y)

2010-11-19T18:59:00.003+08:00

miss those times when we webcam (Y)
today went to eunos [sims avenue] to eat YONGTAUFOO xP
thanks sis for accompany me go my CCK ITE in the morning till afternoon x.x!
make you very mafan uhhs! sorry uhhs sis x33
next monday you also caccompany me, touching! awwww~
love die you okays! muacks muacks!
going meet sissy later at night (Y)!
going arcade play the fishy thinggy ! teehees!
okays i gonna get myself to the toilet and bathe already :D
byes! update real soon (Y)
to some bitch and bastard or dog couple,
if you don't like my blog you shall fk off farfar (:!
i don't need you both dog couple to comment :D! (Y) not happy? then fk off from my bloggie :D!
you're not welcome also :D! go back to your mum and suck her nipple and drink milk! -'-

2010-11-14T23:56:00.002+08:00

hey peeeepos~

today like a fun, after work went to hub meet Ahbee, ahbee's wife and eugene (:

thanks for bring me to arcade and play (:

and thanks for your treats too eugene!

like a brother to me HAHA!

after they go home, i met mummy, ahjie, daddy, didis.

they went to eat :D and i stonning there ._________.

din eat because i don't know what to eat.

walk to 42O and went up, i stay there quite long (:

daddy drew an angkong phoenix for me at my leggggggggggggggggggggg :D

like a cool and nice cans! i like okays!

next time, i want put angkong. wait till i'm 21 :x

sigh, gastric flu come back again ):

pain die cans? i've told a white lies to the doctor beside my mum shop :x

Doctor: you got smoke?

Me: ers, don't have :D! (actually have las sorry to tell white lies)

Doctor: okays good (:

laughing my arss out okays :D!

though i'm like a happy but my heart din felt any happyness.

i sometimes felt lonely,

but i'm strong okays (:

i'm independent toos!

nothing much to say uhhs (:

nights peepoooooooos :D

2010-11-09T13:10:00.002+08:00

sorry peeps!

din update xP because was busy~

FACEBOOK FACEBOOK FACEBOOK mahs Xp

then forget blog nahs sorry uhhs!

well, yesterday was at my godma's house

and they were quarrling from 12 to midnight totallt 12 hours cans! x.x

like a wtf cans? break record okays!

like a bored, sighh.

how i wish got boyf like now beside me and accompany me D:

too badd, don't have for me.

weee, 15th coming :D!

clubbing timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~

shall post tonight le :D! byes!

2010-11-06T01:41:00.002+08:00

Heyyoo!

today was like a fun with ahjie and ahfel :D!

was talking half way, and we have out ICE WARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR ~

i aizai okays! xP

was at ahjie house till 7 plus and we meet ahfel~

and we settle down and eat our food!

and we shall start our ICE WARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR :x LOL!

after that felfel say wants take bus home and we walk her to busstop~

and reach there!

she change her mind ~

and we cabby home! half way through,

on cab we saw a car inside they have 2 couples

behind got 1 guy is handsome and fel kena sot dao :x LOL!

and front i thought i saw a old man driving, and she said no it's not old man,

and she wanted to say 28 yrs old and she said er shi poh LOL!

was laughing mad in the cabby.

and ciaos! off from cab and now blogging :D!

and nights peeeepoos!

later i'm going dog farm, and adopt a dog toos :D

2010-11-04T13:30:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night was chatting on phone with

stalker Alex (: that gangster :x

okays whatever, thanks for wasting your time talking rubbish with me :x

and i'm like a bored now ):

gonna bathe and head down to amk find my friend uhhs (:

and that Alex still haven wake up -.-

he's like a pig cans! :x

and thanks dumbdumb entertaining the whole day toos (:

baby going to move to dog farm de ):

ahjie will be crying again like soon D:!

and mummy and daddy always quarrel and have a fight.

idk what's wrong with them toos D:

well, sighh.

shall update later or 2morrow alright? (:

2010-11-03T16:25:00.002+08:00

thinking back from the past,

my friends past away,

went to see candice's profile in friendster,

out of sudden tears just roll down from my cheeks.

why's heaven wants their life so early when they even

haven done their things finish?

they are still young and why you let them leave us so early?

i think that, you're not fair to them toos,

i know this is fate but why so early?

and another friend was like playing

warcraft will jump off from window?

sighh, i don't wish to think back. but i can't x.x

well, it's been 1 weeks plus (:

i've already been happy and i din even drop a single tears already for him!

cause i know he's not worth to be by my sides (:

i can find a better then him de yeas (:

he's not in my world anymore i can swear :D!

because, i don't even like him already (:

single lifes is better alright!

well, shall update 2morrow already (: ciaos♥

放弃一个很爱你的人，
并不痛，
放弃一个你很爱的人，
那痛苦，爱上一个不爱你的人，
那是更痛苦，别等到错过后才后悔，
别等到失去后才想挽♥

2010-10-31T12:18:00.002+08:00

Hey you! you're fking gross okays (:

i don't like you this type of guys anymore (:

i can find a better de :D!

i've been stupid!

if you still like me you won't go for your ex back (:

they say because she can fk so you go back LOL!

(Y) ehs! now then i know you're this type of kinda guy (:

hey dog (LLWS), go back to your master and ask for food.

bark more and ask for more food right? :D!

now i'm gonna enjoy single life!

and i'm gonna start the PARTY ! (Y)

no more controling and no more stress when i go there ^_^

2010-10-30T03:10:00.003+08:00

it's hard for me to forget you ~~LLWS~~.

and sorry LHH for rejecting you,

cause i seriously very tired on having relationship already.

it's hurt to have a relationship, and i'm scare of it toos

i've said, yes i can't let go ~~LLWS~~ because i still loves him alot,

i can tell you i need time to forget him like,

3 to 5 months it's hurt me alot,

when i need him, he is the one who come my house downstair and wait for me,

~~LLWS~~, you forget your promise?

you said you won't leave me, but now you leave me without reasons.

can i know why? i just need a reasons and i will leave your world,

issit so hard to tell me a reasons?

it's 1 week, you din contact me or anything.

why you want to treat me like this?

i cried, i drink and i drunk to forget you,

but i drunk already, i still thinks of you.

went your house downstair and think back the 1st day we met,

and i break down and cry.

you tell everybody that you will ~~takecare~~ of me,

you tell everybody that you want ~~choose~~ to be with me,

you tell everybody that i'm only ~~girl~~ that's make you happy,

you tell everybody that you will ~~love~~ me,

and what's all this?

i miss your caringness towards me, i cried when you hug me and help me wipe away my tears,

i've drunk, you accompany me till morning and you went home.

when i'm sweating, you wipe for me like a little girl.

when i'm cold at kbox you hug me tightly and warm me up.

when i'm angry you will chill me down.

maybe, i'm just silly bahs?

i'm stubborn and i'm stupid.

sigh, well maybe i shall stop blogging already.

nights everybody.

~~i ♥ TwentySevenZeroNineTwoZeroOneZero; ZeroTwoTwentyOne~~ .

~~i still can't forget you and i miss you alot.~~

~~Boy, come back to me cans?~~

~~i need you badly.~~

2010-10-25T13:36:00.002+08:00

well, 27th's is gone,

maybe you shall lead your new life and i shall lead my new life alright?

my memories to you won't wash away, because i know that i can't wash away myself.

i need someone to pull me out of darkness again,

and thanks for these few weeks,

when i'm cold you hugged me tightly,

when i'm sweating you clean for me like a little girl,

when i stomachach, you bought panadols for me,

when i'm drunk, you accompany me till the morning and you need went back to camp chalet.

thanks for those wonderful memories alright? (:

thanks for making me cry and upsad for you, i think it's not worth it for me,

your wonderful memories i will get my energy to wash away,

by next month end i nv forget you,

i shall let car bang me okays (:!

LLWS, you have end this relationship yourself without reasons.

i won't forget how you ditch me, and i never ever get ditch by a guy before.

let me tell you, sooner or later is someone ditch you!

your KARMA will have your retributionn!

i will hate you ~~forever~~ (':

2010-10-18T00:42:00.003+08:00

1st month coming, like 9 days
baby can't come out, so i pass him today's presents.
and was making this lighter,
this owner of this shop say, wow compatible.
i was like, LOL?
okays i ask that owner of the shop to make it faster cause boyf going back
camp at 8.3O and i've not much time to meet him ):
well, let fate be alright? (:
baby in camp, take care of yourself okays?
still remember your promise?
you said you will married me (:
i was so happy and touch.
and you shy and say you love me,
thanks baby for taking care me these days.
we have been through thicks and thins.
If i can find the true love of my life, i'd rather choose to stay by your side, because our dream can be fulfilled anytime, but we must not miss our love ♥
baby, i will be miss you every seconds, every mintues and hours,
will be waiting you come out from camp alright?♥
nobody will break us apart i swear, 12 more days yea baby
i will wait for you to come out okays?
TwentySevenZeroNineTwoZeroOneZero Two:TwentyOneAM♥

2010-10-17T13:47:00.002+08:00

baby going back camp and cannot come out )':

1st month cannot celebrate liaos D:

hmms, nvms lurhhs (:

well, going bugis later to make things.

1 month like a fast uhhs x.x

and ahjie told me baby call her say that he scare i run away with other guy,

i was like zxczxc i don't run away with other guy las! x.x

you think too much le nahs! knszxc :x

i won't run away unless you run away okays? (:

whatever it is, i'm going bathe le and head down to bugis alone (:

cyas (:

1O more days to our 1st months baby ILY♥

2010-10-14T04:47:00.004+08:00

this picture look like some retarded idiot :x ~.~

well, having fun just now.

and thanks baby accompany me go V2 past few days :D!

camwhoring with twinnehh and with brothers :D

and afternoon went to find baby,

he cheated me again! playing hide and seek :@

okays nvms (:

i can play with him! :P

knock on his window alot of times and he just stupid cough so loud

he woke up he told me he at friend house!

stupid and retarded right? :x

and i knew he is at home, and he haven eat! skip meal again!

naughty! and well, bought him his favourite mee hoon kuey!

and i was eating ban mian and he forced me eat finish x.x

i know you don't wan me having gastric thanks baby yeas? (:

and saw-ed brother's(BRANDON) facebook!

we come out slack awhile, and i've locked baby in his house and forgetting

that he is still inside :x oops sorry baby :x

and brother was like a sad ):

don't sad okays! this sister always here for you (: ♥

chatted awhile and baby start his stomach pain going dabians again :x

and well, he went up 1st while i waited for brother to go find his girlf mum :D!

and brother don't sad okays? :D!

after that, baby bathing and twintwin sms-ed me telling me a malay guy

wants to meet her in her shop! and she was scared :x

and i bluff her and i told her that boyf can't let me go out and he is in camp :x

and i told twintwin, i'm her gurdian angel! call my name 3 times and i will appear,

she shock-ed and was like surprise! heehees, thanks baby accompany me go to town toos,

after twintwin work finish, we head to JCUBE.

and play-ed 1 hour audition, like a long we never even touch audition,

was like a retarded.

after lan, went to twintwin house and she change to her slipper and she sneak out again see las!

naughty again!, and we headed our arss down to 532

and after 532 went to TPY to eat and down to songka and went to our leisure place,

V2! weeeeheeeeheeees~

and baby was like a scare there, lalas :x and he really like a protect me :D

thanks uhhs baby ♥

and after that S'daddy sent us to 4O7 bus-stop and take cab,

we came down from car and james start to light his cigg!

and we stay for just awhile,

baby hug me like a tight, and don't wan let go HAHA!

went up to cab, and guess what?!

i saw my mum's friend, he's another complain king hoho!

lucky never tell him we go chiong :P

reach home now, guess what? i'm blogging hahas,

goodnights everybodehh ♥

2010-10-07T01:33:00.002+08:00

2O more days to me and baby 1st mths (:

and baby now in camp :D!

and i'm alone at home D:

friday is AHJIE and SUNNY de 1st mths

weeeeeeeeeeeee, both of us is september de!

heehees...

i'm like a hungry nao ):

baby faster come out from camp okays?

i'll wait for you to come out (:

today went to 4O8 and never went for training

sorry girls ):

having flu D:

missing baby right nao ): hope he later wake up will sms me

and thanks baby for calling me and accompany me to chat when i'm alone in bus

just nao (:

thanks baby ♥ loves you ttm! (:

okays i go sleep le, nights all

2010-10-05T00:46:00.002+08:00

went to barrage! and having fun today :D!

well, something spoil my freaking mood (:

well to this A friend, just fk off from laoniangs life (:

and you're not worth it to know me well (:

last time your things got ppl find you troubles you seek for help

and i've help, you saying that you going to jump building

and i cab down and talk to you

you reminds me of some backstabbers

and yea, you got your water i scare? LOL!

i don't think so bahs? LOL!

2O1O le, still play gangster? LOL! jolly well fk off las (:

no wonder so many ppl start to hate you le

no wonder all your best friends leave you too

go think bahs, you're been use-ed

you not worth to be my friend :D!

i go my life you go your life (:

nobody want to interfere yeas?

and you go for this way, don't come back and beg like a dog and talk to me (:

i don't talk to dogs :D!

laughs,
friends comes and go, i hope you die le nobody knows (:

your KARMA will come and hits you soon (:

2010-10-04T12:24:00.002+08:00

kinda miss baby nao ):
4 more days (: and he will booked out le! :x
and i'm having flu nao D:
later going tpy with ahjie and ahmei :D!
weeeee ~ finally we 3 get to go out again ~
and i miss them D:!
yesterday baby booked in and he insist me to wear is belt x.x
cause my pants loosse ~
while waiting for ahjie to come D: i went to LiFeng's shop (:
chit chat awhile and alot things to say and they say baby have already change to another person,

well, glad ppl see him change (:
and for my thinking, baby is more happier then with me :P
friday baby booked out, and baby keep on want go my house stay x.x
omg, die le las, machiam his house like that x.x
yesterday his mum talk to me darm good,
and ahhjie tell me, his mother always scold his ex,
i was like LOL?! his mum still take food and give me x.x
thanks aunty x3 (:

To: Baby♥,
happy 1 week baby♥ , have a great 1 week with you (:
and thanks for everything, even if i've mood swing,
you try to make me smile, stomach pain you buy me hot milo,
touch my stomach and say if i'm in pain you will heart pain.
sorry for making you worry okays?
4 more days, and you can see me le (:
happy? it's very fast de lurhhs (:
friday i shall go yewtee meet you :D! surprise? HAHA!

Love is swift, sincere, pious, joyful, generous, strong, patient, faithful, prudent, long-suffering, courageous, and never seeking its own; for wheresoever a person seeketh his own, there he falleth from love.♥

2010-10-03T11:48:00.002+08:00

went to malaysia, come back already (: these few days, baby keep on come my house sleep!
zxczxc he and my didi like a gay too D:!
stupid pig! :x sleep till so late, wake up also late.
there's alot ppl there and baby was shy! LOL
so everybody was like ahgirl intro your boyf leis,
all cousin keep on disturb me D:!
knszxc and well play with my nephew he's like a cute okays!
so i was carrying the baby, and my aunties all say
wah! so early got baby already and they disturb me again x.x
after that my cousin he keep on ask us to drink x.x
my nephew is like going to sleep~
and i carry and make him sleep :D!
and baby keep on say like baby ar?
we go make 1 lurhhs! -.- knszxc crazy die him!! #$%^&*()(*&^%
HAHA! anyways, have a fun trip with baby and family lurhhs (:
next time is kor kor bring his girlf, didi bring his girlf & i bring my boyf
and we go together :x LOL!
laughs! oh my~ i miss my newphew ):
he like a sleeping soundly yesterday, and can't get to see him wake up ):
and reach home, baby and didi don't want to sleep x.x i pei them till 4am i go room toh le :x
okays don't want to talk to much :D
i need say things le :x

To : ahhMinn ahjie!
well, i don't know that things happen so fast, and now you're single! x.x
don't too upset okays? see you like that me and ahmei will cry de,
no sunny but still got other guys alright?
it's okays if you feel like crying don't feel shy okays?
we will always stay beside you (:
don't think too much okays? ♥

2010-10-01T15:16:00.003+08:00

at baby house nao :D ♥!

waiting for him to bathe done and maybe heading down to idk where?

and thanks peepos for asking me to LASTLONG :D!

these few days, baby really dote on me! HAHA! nice boyf i've :D!

heehees! and saturday we going to malaysiaaaaaaa (:

my parents seems to like him alot x.x

cham liaos uhhs ? :x LOL!

joke de las (: got stalker in my blog :x cannot say don't joke :P

okays whatever it is i ♥ him ttm!

To: ahBi!

thanks for so concerning me :D

our love starting to be strong

and nobody can seperate us yeas! ♥

2010-09-25T01:47:00.002+08:00

These are call sisters! (: camwhoring with me ♥

they care for me, they heart to heart talk to me.

thanks god for letting me know them (:

and i'm going to die soon!

like what the hell! i need eat 1 an half day vegetarian! wtf!

i don't know how m i going for the friendly match x.x

die ttm ):

i'm like a hungry now when seeing ppl eat ):

i need eat vegetarian! OMG las! once in my life leis!

i will die )':
there's lots of things happen, and i've already drifted apart from them.
and sorry to say that, my mum is not happy that i going out with you all till lates nights.

2010-09-23T12:45:00.002+08:00

YES! i've found my for REAL SISTERS!♥

they makes me happy,smile, talking crap and play! they know me well then others?

and like 1 day nv see them i'll feel lonely ):

thanks god for letting me know them :D

no boyf but i got them (:

we DRINK, DRANK & DRUNK!

and was fun duh! They never smoke,

but one day i think i will not smoke anymore if i with them for a long time :D

with them, i forget my sadness and i've move on.

thanks Jasmine, KunMei & LaLa (:

sisters never dies okays?♥

tonight Kbox and toning! :D

Drink Drank Drunk! Weeeeee ~

faster end my work and go sing K and Drink!

Ciaos♥ (Y)

2010-09-17T11:56:00.003+08:00

my son is cute right? :D!

Blogging time (:

well, seriously i really very stress, i need something to de-stress ):

i headach, i ate panadols, total i ate like a packet in 1 day.

sigh, hmms, maybe going marina barrage with twin and some friends (:

there can de-stress by flying kite! :D!

miss my son currently now! yay! later bringing him go marina barrage! :D!

cool uhhs! :D!

after that ton ton ton! :D

and saturday! AHGAO'S birthday! :D

weeeee going sing K le lurhhs! heehees !!!

these few days alot things happen, cause of some farker

make us fk up and all not happy, sigh.

i've enough le laszxc! go home be you mother de good son and don't join PAIKIA okays?

chao ahgua! -'- (:

2010-09-15T12:10:00.002+08:00

Close my eyes and think nothing,

peacefully mind and i shall not do evil things and all already (:!

things do more evil more karma ):

so i've decided! less fights, less quarrel, less vugal (:

dying my hair while blogging :D!

meeting Dexiong, cheewei and his girlf soon after that meet clement awhile,

and go for Volleyball (:

i miss those times we play, we disturb, we cry, we angry ect ect.

now, i've already drifted apart with you all soon, i shall ask all to take care (:

i'm tired already. given up everything, now i shall concentrate on my things?

friday maybe toning? :D! yay!

F>ppl to ton on friday okays ! :D at AMK hougang or bishan area :x LOL!

repeating the song that you all sing to me, and tears roll down from my cheeks,

i don't know why? sigh

i know i'm just weak! i know i can't be strong ):

but i must be strong all times, i don't wan my friend to know that i'm weak

i don't wan to let them worry too, sigh!

okays whatever it is i shall go bathe and go out le (: ciaos :D!

2010-09-12T14:42:00.002+08:00

well, i think everyones is drifting apart from me, sigh.

i just feel like crying out loud.

i need a shoulder,

i need a listening ear,

i need a punching bag,

everytime i gave a strong smile but i really feel like crying out loud

and squat down and cover myself.

nobody knows how i feel,

these few days i don't feel like going out sigh,

i feel like locking myself up in the room and force myself to sleep

till don't wake up.

i think i've drifted apart with my twin sister too? maybe?

sigh, few days back i've been working but there's 1 day i keep on

take the wrong things for the customers,

i don't know what i'm thinking.

i just feel like crying.

now everybody is drifting, i shall MIA from them but not my blog,

facebook and phone.

i can't find a good sister that's really treat me as good sister,

maybe i'm just a burden for them?

well, nothing much bahs?

shall go bathe and go out le.

2010-09-07T03:06:00.003+08:00

well, i don't know why dogs like to spoil ppl mood?
spamming ppl blogs, don't dare put name.
LOL. thanks ppl who cares about me (:
yea my friends are right, this is my blog,
why bother to hear ppl tag about my things?
2O1O already ehs dogs, get a life bahs (:
HATE ME? just fk off (: click the corner top right [x] to fk off far far bahs (:
don't feel lyk entertaining you all.
waste my time :D

REPLY time (:

boon long: bi___t____CH - i bitch? LOL! why not you put your number down? i shall want see how bastard you are (:
boon long: sup ugly ***** - if i'm ugly you go see mirror bahs (: maybe your face is like a pimple mans face (:
Pig: *Snort Snort* COME BACK TO YOUR PIG STY - LOL! you're a pig? awww that's sadded,
nvms i ask farmer give you more food (: i don't think you're a pig, hmms, maybe dog?
i forget dog don't put name (:
john: you quite cute actually - thanks john? (: i don't know is your real name or what (:
katie: i love your style - thanks (: everyones have their own style :D! you can have yours too!
Cat: Its like natural for you but its sill wtf - ofcause natural for me (: for you? i don't think you like cause you said you're a cat (: cat eat cat food, when you don't need owner you run away, when you need owner, you run back to your owner and meow meow and you have cat food le (:
Dat Yong: Seriously, Stop making pig faces - i make pig face? LOL! maybe i think you see wrongly le bahs?
tommy: you should not have been born - if i should not be born, i'm still here? LOL! trying to be LAME? LOL!
Thaddeus: U DAMN FAT - FAT?! LOL! fat got huan tio you? LOL! i think next time your wife or girlf fatter then me! laughs!

get a life bahs accept JOHN and KATIE (:

i don't understands why these red dogs i've highlight they don't dare put name or number? why not you all put your number? LOL! don't hide behind the computer and be like a keyboard warrior (: (Y)

2010-08-30T00:06:00.002+08:00

well, i don't know why guys are so sudden and random?

sigh, past already past le, what for still bring back?

saying that you miss me, and all things?

as i said to ppl i'm strong, and

bygones by bygones, i forgives and forget.

blame me for stupid to love you all,

not all you all faults at all?

i've single for many many months,

i prefer single is better then having attach?

even if i'm attach i just want a peaceful life,

not everytime quarrling with boyf,

and he don't gives me freedoms or anything.

i just wants my boyf to loves me,

sent me home, things that are sweeet.

well, this type of guys, is very hard to find,

and maybe fate bahs.

2010-08-28T12:59:00.002+08:00

i ♥ camworeeee :D!

weeeee, yesterday camwore till many many pictures!

go my facebook and see can le lurhhs :D

well, yesterday went to siistarhh chalet just for like awhile only,

and head back to amk to find twintwin (:

well, tot of going V2 in the end ):

awww, sad news no V2 ):

after that, cab back to twin house (:

and chatted like half an hour and we head to bed.

tonight's havinggggggggggggggggggggggggg dinner with my girl and my twin and brothers (:

weeeeee, and chalet and meeting all my long time friends!

DRUNK tonight! (:

2010-08-27T15:37:00.002+08:00

i've done my blog skin! (:

heehees, nice? laughs! today got siistarhhs's chalet :x

weeee! idk want go today anot ):

i wanna ton ton ton! monkey ask me pei him ton x.x

idk want anot lurhhs X.x

i'm tired ):

and i'm darm angry about some fkers!

make my mood totally gone case -'-!

1 guy and 1 girl tmd cb! arghhs!

x.x don't talk about it le bahs,

i'm like a shag ): sigh.

i don't think i'm a good leader also )':

sigh!

okays i go bathe and go ouut le (: ciaos ♥

2010-08-25T12:51:00.003+08:00

Happy belated 17th birthday to you! (:

have a great night :D and you only ta 6 cup of martel only ):

no fun le ): anyways, grow up le, don't flirt around and find a good girlf las (:

don't take positute as your girlf stupid! :P
don't need cause you wants chio bu then go find chio de,

chio can give you money to eat all those mehs? no mahs (:
grow up le must think okays! :D!

luckily i've a twin sister to camwore with me (:

thanks for everytime pei-ing me.

appreciate it yea sis :3

yesterday it's a big big big day well, i nv even drunk :x

cause i drank abit only,

well, wake up and i saw YOG volleyball! omgomgomg,

singapore win uhhs :D! jiayous :D!

cool, well i've nothing to do today (:

so ciaos! i go bathe and go out le ciaos (:

2010-08-24T13:38:00.002+08:00

just FML okays!
i don't know why i trust ppl too much and they just bluffing me like nobody business,
sigh! friends aree for what! to trust and so all.
seriously, idk what to do naoszxc sudden break down,
i feel like crying and hiding under blanket and cry,
i've enough trusting of friends it's hurts sigh.
what ever bull shitting i don't wanna listen, just fk off bahs.
well,
sometimes i wanted to ask you alot question,
but i get no chance to ask ):
well, tonights schedule will be very busy bahs.
dinner dinner x.x!
and i'm really really really very very very tired
i cried and cried and cried thinking alot of things.
but sigh, once things is gone it will be forever gone.
so cherish it when it's still there )':

Lovers may be - and indeed generally are - enemies, but they never can be friends, because there must always be a spice of jealousy and a something of Self in all their speculations.
I'm keeping S.T.R.O.N.G! and no matter what you throw at me you can't knock me down.♥

2010-08-23T12:31:00.004+08:00

1stly,

okays done! what's come my mind 1st is Golden didi )':

well, didi everytime you not with us we felt abit werid cause you nv makes us laughs,

cause you're not in, well everytime wanted to ask you.

didi how are you inside? got ppl bully you? got ppl make you angry?

your temper also not good de, if ppl see you you're not happy le, change okays?

Jiejie always support you yeas (':

come out must contact us okays? we will always write letter to you (':

miss us okays? especially your girlf, DSCH uhhs. miss her more yeas.

she misses you alot till she cried, i pray hard you faster come out okays?

faster makes us smile and not let us emo )':!

misses those times we went to V2 you dance and let us see, by tie-ing 2 ponytails with us,

by making me angry, laughing together, swim together with oour cliques, go macritchie and

play. misses those times, i hope i will stop that time and don't move )':

2ndly,

sorry bendan monkey! sorry for nv pick up your call cause i'm really tired till i fall asleep ):

i woke up you gave me many miss call sorry x.x ):

hope you go in DB don't angry me yeas ):!

4 days is very fast uhhs! you faster come out okays? ):

my fault for nv pick up your call x.x sorry uhhs ):

x1OOOOOOOOO sorry ):

woke up and saw monkey's sms ask me take extra care, cause he going in DB?

alamak, still ze guai myself why i sleep like pig! so early sleep so late wake up! alamak x.x

stupid SOTONG -.-! i don't know i going where naozxc )': monkey go in nv entertain me liaos

kinda feel bored )':! okays bahs, let's go for 3rd post yeas ):

3rdly,

For my twin :3,

i will be there for you toos uhhs! but i don't want you to have so much troubles,

even i have more troubles then you but, i don't mind helping you.

i drunk myself cause to forget everything just only awhile that's what people say,

and yes, making myself to drunk because to forget things that i don't want to remember.

yes next day still feel the pain, but i prefer to have forget things awhile then i'm not drunk

and i anyhow think? )':
i'm trying to learn and get over myself yea sis? )': but i felt useless.

since you said guess it's time for us to be strong, yes sure!

maybe we really trusted the wrong person bahs?

Friends comes and go, to love is to let go.

thanks for teaching me this :3 i can get over! yes i can sis!

everytime i can't cry out loud cause i don't even dare )':

i hope you still will share your troubles with me even i felt troubled but i won't share with you

because i know you are more weak then me,

i'm more strong then you right?

maybe you will say yea! strong by the outter part weak like freaking idiot on the inner part x.x

sigh, let it be fate bahs.

and you said! " i don't want you to keep drinking then you get drunk you understand. you woke up next day you still feel the pain, learn to get over it yourself. Maybe we should go out excercise

then sweat everything out, hang out less of those bad company, study, work then have a better life, hunt for better boyf?"

waiting for your excercise (:! waiting for studies, waiting for better boyf! (':

and lastly, we both twin must be freaking strong! (:

2010-08-22T14:13:00.003+08:00

why i'm hiding? why why why?

why i need to cry? why why why?

they told me before, if they together what will i do?

i said bless them.

but why i'm hiding inside blanket crying like idiot?

yesterday din even go home, after drinking with QUEENIE and i head to find

Adnen all.

all hiding and keeping secret on me and i really hate it,

and i told my twin, i can predict they already together,

twin ask me to trust her, yes i've trust her

but i don't think i will trustt her another times? maybe or?

i cried, cause it's hurt my heart.

my heart is shattered, can't use plaster or scorch tape or glue to make it back,

even if is back, the scar is still down there.

people says, it takes time heal.

but for mine, i don't think so and yeas.

you all makes me change, change to another person

is like, someone have stab me and i still smiling like an idiotic and just move on,

even if i'm strong, i'm just strong only the outter part but my inner part is

really really really weak.

i'm acting strong infront of you all but when evers i'm alone my tears suddenly

dropped itself,

typing just half way through my tears already roll down from my cheeks,

is like, nobody knows how i feel.

who will really know? sigh.

heartache.

and thanks for Monkey, ahlong and 1 more guy for tonning with me (:

thanks alot (':

ciaos

i just want to say ouyevoli and i've give up (':

Memories are what you have, when you've lost everything else. Dreams are what you have, when you forget the memories. And bliss is what you have when you give up.
When I first met him, I rejoiced in him. What splendid, fascinating, and new things he brought to my stagnant life. For instance, he could talk for hours about space and music. And if, 3 and 1 half years later I realize that he can talk for hours about space and music. Despite this, I still love him maybe?♥

2010-08-21T10:44:00.002+08:00

it's only 1O.45am only,

and sigh, i dreamt about alot of things and i cried ):

and i talk to myself,

you like a person issit so hard to forget when you're leaving him?

well, i've been a stupid and dumb idiot girl ):

i feel like just close my eyes, and just sleep on my bed and don't wake up

for the rest of my life.

i only can blog and just say that czyduoyekili,

but now you got other people. well, last long uhhs (:

my bless yeas (:

i've will fuck off from today onwards,

and thanks for your caring and things.

thanks, and lastly.. uoyevoli..

2010-08-20T13:18:00.002+08:00

well, now adays been 11 plus 12am reach home,

and no longer 3am 4am only on friday and saturday.

sigh, this kinda of life i can't have it lurhhs x.x

now keep on tell me what she having CID to follow me, ehs please las

i've have enough! really don't make me fking 1 day i going crazy you all

cry and say this say that, cb bodoh!

see your face i fking feel lyk leaving the house

i've enough le las hors -'-

nonsense plus nonsense!

fk up! sigh!

aiya whatever, i hate it okays, i don't feel lyk talking now!

ciaos!

2010-08-17T13:53:00.003+08:00

Morning (:

wanted thanks my cousin Michelle for the long message on FACEBOOK (:

i can tell you that, he is not a bad guy, is just that he treat me as daughter so he will treat me very good.

and he never did anything to me, and he is a god father that i can fking really respect,

and now i don't mind going in to girls prison!

if you want sent me in then go ahead okays!

you always play comp always late, then when we play till late you kpkb

and let me tell you did you ever fking care us?

and the answer is NO!

you only know how to play your comp and everytime we play till late you will confiscate our

broadband, now what?

you play till late can we can't? okays then let it be okays?

i will go out my own and slack myself! i don't need you all to care for me,

even though they say FAMILY = Father And Mother I Love You,

i don't think so! you all treat me as a daughter? oh well. forget it bahs, i don't need ppl to pity me

and seriously, you want call CID? okays go ahead yea!

at most i go till late and i slack at house downstair see whether you all will find me anot lurhhs (:

i not scare las hors (: i've enough of this fking family le,

want kick me out go ahead bahs. i can find place to stay and ciaos

2010-08-16T12:45:00.002+08:00

Twinnehh and Me (:

morning all (:
i've been crying crying crying like for everynight? sigh,
i don't know what i'm thinking ):
sigh, only my TWINNEHH understand me the most,
she's the one who really know me well enough.
thanks for your shoulder when you can't do anything yeas sis? ):
well, i know i'm silly for crying but i can't control ):
issit it's time to make me give up everything?
i'm really really really tired ):
i just need a break T.T
now i want my life to be CLUB and PUB everyday,
to make me forget everything!
ciaos :3

My silence doesn't mean,

I forget you.

My disappearance doesn't mean,

I don't care about you.

Because I do & you are always in my heart ♥

2010-08-14T15:01:00.002+08:00

BOBBY bro and me (:

well, yesterday i did cry and i'm drunk cause i darm stress up?
sigh, thanks twinneh and xiaojui was there with me talking to me.
teaching me this and that saying me, thanks alot yeas (:
yea, sometimes i thinking that what should i do?
thinking tha i'm teaching them bad, thinking that i not good enough for them,
thinking that should i let it go or hold ons to it.
i'm tired, really.
i can't be bother everything anymore i'm breaking down nows.
i cried silently, i hurt myself silently, and nobody know cause i don't want
them to worried me.
RELATIONSHIP? nahs, not planning to find 1 because i've know now adays, all are puppy
loves, guys won't be faithful untills they lost it.
they did not cherish it when they are together with girls,
they hurt them, after break? saying them this and that.
even if you got him/her, but you don't have his/her heart there's no point walking
down this relationship right?
but truthfully, YES, i miss him.
but i've letting it go, i shall not think of him anymore and be a good girl.

I chose to love you in silence,

for in silence I find no rejection.

I chose to love you in your loneliness,

for in your loneliness no one owns you, but me ♥